Pregnancy Loss: Hope
November 15, 2013
From Longing to Love: Our Adoption Story
June 3, 2019
Today we have another beautiful story of pain, loss, survival, and hope. Jamie and her husband David suffered an extreme loss when she delivered their twins knowing that they would only be with them for a short moment, but they knew “everything was going to be okay” and continued on their journey to parenthood. They have since adopted a sweet little boy. Thank you so much, Jamie, for allowing us to share your story! We cant wait to hear the rest of your adoption story in a future post!
My husband & I have been married for 15 years. At the beginning of our marriage we discussed babies, & both of us agreed we wanted to wait for awhile. Well awhile turned into seven years. (mind you we never prevented it from happening) Than we began to talk about having a family. Knowing it was not going to happen on its own we dove into everything medical. I knew deep down that we were going to have to do IVF (Invetro Fertilization). The drs kept telling us, “there is nothing wrong with either of you, you are a medical mystery.” Talk about frustrating. So after 3 1/2 years of everything else, we finally did IVF. And it worked! We got pregnant with twins to boot!!! A boy & a girl who could ask for better?! We were extremely excited.
When I was 5 1/2 months in, I began to have a lot of back pain, not knowing that labor pains could be in your back (I just thought it was due to the fact I was carrying two babies). That night I woke up to an extreme amount of blood & pain, so my husband took me to the hospital. It took the nurses several hours to finally tell us I was in labor & that I was going to have my twins. We were in complete shock & did not believe them. They said I had an incompetent cervix. We began to pray. I prayed that this could not be true & to please allow us to keep our twins. Every time I did I would get the same answer, “everything is going to be OK.” So at that time I took that to mean that the twins were going to be fine & when the time came we would have healthy babies to take home.
I was wrong (in a way). After doing everything they could over the next day my water ended up breaking & my son Stryker was ready to be born. Being so small (13.1oz & 10 3/4 inches) he came right out. He was beautiful. He looked so perfect. He was wiggling around until they handed him to me, than he curled up & just let us snuggle right up to him. After a couple minutes they broke my water with my little girl & Scout was born. (11.6oz 9 3/4 inches) She was so precious & just as perfect as Stryker. The Dr. handed them both to me & they all just stepped away & allowed us to savor every moment with our babies. At first I was thinking “do something, help them, they are alive save them.” But there was nothing that could be done. And we knew that. Something in me told me that this was the way it was supposed to be. That this was all part of the plan. And as difficult as it was I had a lot of peace in my heart. That day was one of the hardest & also the greatest days of our lives. And I know now that everything was going to be ok.
We are believers in everything happens for a reason. There are so many reasons that we had to go through what we did. Now don’t get me wrong it was not easy. But it has been worth it. And I would do it a thousand times again if I had to, just to know that I have my two babies watching over us & waiting for us to all be reunited for all eternity!
And because of my twins I have been able to open up towards adoption! Without that experience I would still be banging my head against the wall trying to conceive on our own…
We applied for adoption in Oct. of last year & were picked within two weeks! We were able to go through almost the entire pregnancy with our birth mom & in June we welcomed our son Ledger into our family! We had an awesome adoption experience!
I know that Ledger knows his brother & sister. And I know that they helped guide our birth mom to us. Their loss is extremely sad but we have grown so much & learned so much. And without it who knows where our life would be. So for that I am extremely thankful for their sacrifice!
